Dumb decisions
IDK it just feels like its been a while. I know I have a million other things to do right now. I know that I also have a million other posts to actually finish instead of create a new one. But this is my blog and I'll cry if I want to. I mean start a new post if I want to.
In all fairness I have no idea what I am actually going to write about. I mean maybe I should just call this failing into success. As I feel like I am failing forward, but somehow I am getting accepted into a PhD at Purdue University. I attended a lecture on using Electric Fields to induce Quantum Tunneling, and the Dynamics of Disordered Quantum Magnets. This was interesting to say the least but I knew nothing about this, and I learned a lot. But it highlights the issue that I feel as though I am less prepared for this than I should be. But I also have 2 years in order to fix this issue, I think. I might not, and I might never feel "ready." But what does being ready even mean?
Being Ready
Ready: Prepared or available for service, action, or progress. Mentally disposed; willing. Likely or about to do something.
We also see examples of what being ready is in the phrase "Ready and Willing," which is in the second definition, and the phrase "Ready and able," which is kind of in the first definition. And I suppose by these definitions, I am ready. As on all of these levels I am prepared, willing, and hopefully about to start my doctorate, even if I have no idea what I am doing. Or rather feel that I have a knowledge inadequate to the requirements to do something actually useful in the arena I am entering. Though there is something to be said about "If you are the smartest person in the room you are in the wrong room." I am here to learn after all. I am here to improve, and I cannot improve if I think I know everything.