The point, Not Finished Yet
Sorry if you may have read some of this before, but, I decided that perhaps it made more sense with the direction that I was headed with the article, that It should be moved to a seperate article, instead of just a continuation of the previous one.
Finally figured it out, for now, I suppose
I think this is the main point of this blog. To figure out how I want to live my life and the best way to do so. What I wish I did, what I am doing, how I feel about the current things I am doing. What I want to do in the future. And maybe even, how the things I have done, now affect me in the present. (Or how things I have/will write affect/effect me in the present/future. (I hope that makes sense)).
The point being, a concrete line of chronological evidence on events and choices made, by me, for me and whoever who decides to read this, to eventually say "This guy is a moron, the way he should have done blank is blank, and that is how I am gonna do it." Or in other words, This is here so hopefully one person, at least one, can learn from my mistakes, and help prevent them from making the same ones. I am currently writing this on July 10th 2024, I understand that this post has been left unfinished (and will continue to be unfinished for a while after I post this part), since June 11th, and I started this website, technically in August 18th 2021, and only decided that I would actually work on it, and make it look like something, though what that something is I do not actually know. And I would say that how the website looks, is not finished, only that I accept the way it looks now enough to say that I have other things to worry about. Like, I don't hate the look, but I am willing to admit, it looks very blue. So It, took me from August 2021, to Febuary 2024, in order to actually do something with this website, to make it something presentable. I remember first showing my friend Molly the website and she laughed at me, and for good reason too. It was plain white, and I couldn't even get the navigation bar in order to populate correctly. Now it looks better, and It has taken my from Febuary 2024, to now (July 2024), in order to actually put into words what this website is. I can now finally take down the "Welcome to, well, whatever this is." tagline from the home page, and put some version of this there instead.
An Example to Live By
The reason I do this, is to give something I never had, an example to live by. I mean, I might have gone over this somewhere else. It seems like something I talk about in life, or at least think about in life constantly, and maybe that is why it took so long for me to realize that the answer I was looking for was right in front of me the whole time. "Be the example you want to see in the world," kind of thing. Not that I know what example I am. To some extent, I am concerned, and possibly scared, that these words, posted on here, paint me to be something much greater than I actually am. That on here I miss posting about all or at least some of the mistakes that I make, and you, dear reader, are left with an impression of me that is untrue. All the thoughts that I throw out, and that you never see. If we look at the variation in the time, that I do infact write, there are vast periods of time lost, and does that inconsistency lead to a lack of a proper record of events going on? I would say partially so, I mean for the most part, the reason, that the time has been undocumented, is because I have been so busy, I couldn't even work enough to pay for my portion of the rent with the income I was receiving, and thus have gone through the entirety of my savings account. But I suppose that is not the point of what I am trying to say.
I speak a decent amount of morals on here. How people should act, or at least how I think I should act, and by extension other people. I try to live by the quote by Epictitus "Never call yourself a philosopher, nor talk a great deal among the unlearned about theorems, but act conformably to them. Thus, at an entertainment, don't talk how persons ought to eat, but eat as you ought. For remember that in this manner Socrates also universally avoided all ostentation. And when persons came to him and desired to be recommended by him to philosophers, he took and- recommended them, so well did he bear being overlooked. So that if ever any talk should happen among the unlearned concerning philosophic theorems, be you, for the most part, silent. For there is great danger in immediately throwing out what you have not digested. And, if anyone tells you that you know nothing, and you are not nettled at it, then you may be sure that you have begun your business. For sheep don't throw up the grass to show the shepherds how much they have eaten; but, inwardly digesting their food, they outwardly produce wool and milk. Thus, therefore, do you likewise not show theorems to the unlearned, but the actions produced by them after they have been digested." In my day to day life.
Love the Journey.